small matter big

This is about how important are small things to me. I have a reputation of not losing my cool that easily. What is it worth anyway? I give people a long rope, so long that most of the times I play rope dance to keep them entertained. But that doesn't mean, I can take bull shit either.

My mum keeps saying, "kutram partha pin sutram illai," which means, one would have nobody if he tends to get judgemantal. True. But even sky has its limit, doesn't it?

I have realised, petty things keep me happier. Not diamonds, not money, my pleasures are more to do with cooking a nice meal, having a nice hot shower, watch a pup play, speak to a kid, get bullied my friends, laugh with my beloveds, make surprise calls to old friends, nurture a dying plant, cry on a silly movie, have late nights before early morning shoots, have a randomn makeover, the list will go on. Most precious things come in small packages, don't they?

I hardly expect, but the problem is when I expect it. At the event of not being able to do what I intended to do, all because some third person tried to act smart and cross my line, that is when i lose my cool.

I give a damn to people who get my way. Cold shoulder! That is what I call the treatment. Just shrug them as often as possible and act as indifferent as possible. "I don't care" would be message I would want that person to get. Unless the person is really dumb, they generally tend to give way.

Well, what if the person is genuinely dumb. Moreover, if the person is so dumb to try outsmarting you. All one has to do is smile. Smile like I did today.

Is that what I felt like doing? No definitely not. I had lost my cool completely. But am I that insane creature who throws things around, all to not say but express how they have lost it.

What is the problem in being vocal? "Yes. I have a problem." How simple is that? If that is how one is going to throw bull shit on me. Go ahead baby. For you don't know how cheap and filthy you have made yourself look.

Everybody has their moods. Never never can I hold somebody else responsible for it. Never never will I show it on somebody else too. Of course one can argue on how important it is to let it out especially with people you are fond of. All I have to say, one sure can, only until he hasn't learnt to outgrow that immaturity.

Imagine people who talk big about being "grown- up" and being "older by age" act so juvenile. Should I go on about how such peolpe don't know the difference between childish and childlike? I am a total beleiver of how no one can be grown-up if not for being childlike at times. Its important to nurture your inner child.

But any idea what to do with these childish people, who just think its some cool fashion formula?

Smile may be :)